"You don't give your heart in pieces/You don't hide yourself to tease us."
-Bethel Music & Steffany Gretzinger
I struggle with listening to most CCM. I'm not saying that it's bad or anything, I just often find myself disconnected from lyrics that do not seem to carry a deep wound. I know other people who find CCM to be the balm they need because of their own wounds, but I have also found the mystery within the book of Job to be the most comforting book of the Bible during my deep depression several years ago. I am a bit of an Eeyore.
It's not surprising that when my wife recommended the song Pieces by Bethel I was not thrilled. But I listened anyways. The lyrics were a great comfort, a reminder of the truth of who God is in the midst of pain, loss, turmoil and chaos... but they were convicting too - am I giving God pieces, table scraps instead of my whole self?
You have given us yourself in abundance. You withhold nothing from us, even the life of your son, his pain and suffering endured for us. For me. For my children. For my friends, my family. For my enemies. Even in our doubt, when you feel absent, you are more present than we know - you don't give your heart in pieces. You invite us in. To suffering? Yes, at times, but also into your resurrection - now and forever, amen.